When I first went down to Florida to get sober I don’t know if I really believed that I could change. I can’t really remember entirely what it was that I was seeking, but I knew that something had to give in my life. I knew that I no longer wanted to drink or use […]
FIRE As I was waking up, I questioned why I blushed so hard when she was talking with me. Yesterday. That girl. She talked to me, longer than before. She walked past me. Our eyes were glued. I was burning, like skin too close to a flame. She had me burning by her presence. […]
As if getting sober isn’t hard enough, we basically have to relearn how to do everything. By using alcohol, drugs, or other destructive behaviors, we’ve been numbing our emotions for years. I don’t know about you, but when I was drinking, relationships were definitely not my strong suit, in fact they were my downfall. From […]
The Yearn. Hallow piece of the heart. Feels the Yearn. Wanting something that is not ours to have. The Yearn. In fact, what we possess, in the end of it all, is simply ourselves. Perhaps the Yearn is something we see in others. Something we see, that strikes a chord in us. A chord we […]
There have been many times in my life when I felt like my feelings were wrong. I felt like I was either overreacting to a situation and I shouldn’t feel as strongly as I did, or I felt in a way that was opposite to how I thought I would feel. The latter always seemed […]
Power of Complacency All I would have to do is exchange green paper. Green paper for a bottle of illusion. Why do I not trade in my reality for this? Easy, over the counter. In and out in 1, 2, 3. ZAP. I am done for. I don’t trade the green paper in. I put […]
Trying to get sober alone is essentially an impossible task, or at least that is what I believe. There are people out there who have managed to put down drugs and alcohol without a fellowship of any kind, by simply mustering up all the grit they had and just quitting, but for most people, this […]
While the 12 Steps do help a large portion of the recovery community overcome many difficulties, they are not a catch-all for solving all of life’s problems. In fact, they were mainly designed to do one thing, help alcoholics and addicts have a spiritual experience, which will expel the obsession to drink and use drugs. […]
Dear Universe. Keep my heart opened. For every avenue. For every corner, I may cross. For every idea that I have pushed to the back of the line. For every negative I have found difficult to adjust to positive. Keep my heart opened to the calling of my physical self. The rest it needs. The […]
The proliferation of information that has occurred in the past 20 years because of the Internet is unparalleled in the history of humanity. Information that used to take a concerted effort to discover and numerous hours of research can now be revealed from a few keystrokes on your phone. The Internet has also brought people […]