The Yearn. Hallow piece of the heart. Feels the Yearn. Wanting something that is not ours to have. The Yearn. In fact, what we possess, in the end of it all, is simply ourselves. Perhaps the Yearn is something we see in others. Something we see, that strikes a chord in us. A chord we […]
There have been many times in my life when I felt like my feelings were wrong. I felt like I was either overreacting to a situation and I shouldn’t feel as strongly as I did, or I felt in a way that was opposite to how I thought I would feel. The latter always seemed […]
Power of Complacency All I would have to do is exchange green paper. Green paper for a bottle of illusion. Why do I not trade in my reality for this? Easy, over the counter. In and out in 1, 2, 3. ZAP. I am done for. I don’t trade the green paper in. I put […]
Trying to get sober alone is essentially an impossible task, or at least that is what I believe. There are people out there who have managed to put down drugs and alcohol without a fellowship of any kind, by simply mustering up all the grit they had and just quitting, but for most people, this […]
While the 12 Steps do help a large portion of the recovery community overcome many difficulties, they are not a catch-all for solving all of life’s problems. In fact, they were mainly designed to do one thing, help alcoholics and addicts have a spiritual experience, which will expel the obsession to drink and use drugs. […]
Dear Universe. Keep my heart opened. For every avenue. For every corner, I may cross. For every idea that I have pushed to the back of the line. For every negative I have found difficult to adjust to positive. Keep my heart opened to the calling of my physical self. The rest it needs. The […]
The proliferation of information that has occurred in the past 20 years because of the Internet is unparalleled in the history of humanity. Information that used to take a concerted effort to discover and numerous hours of research can now be revealed from a few keystrokes on your phone. The Internet has also brought people […]
How do I keep positive thought flow, while maintaining my sobriety? Hmmmm. I ponder this thought, halfway through my morning cup of coffee. (I add coconut cream and honey to my coffee. Just to give away my secret.The coffee Gods directly are going down the hatch.) What does Positive Thought mean to me, exactly? I could bust […]
In January 2015 I decided to admit defeat to my 10 year battle with drugs, specifically cocaine and prescription medication. Also in January 2015 I began talking to a girl on the internet named Emelie. And this is our story. On New Years Eve 2014, on a day which was to be one of my […]
If you aren’t lucky enough to live in a part of the country that doesn’t experience season changes then you are probably getting ready to embrace the fall and hunker down for a long winter. This can be a depressing thought for many of us and lack of daylight and cooler weather can take its […]